workitywork before play

aaaaaaaaah so soon.

fuck mightve lost a catalogue in the mail

- haagen dazs

- 5 and dime

- get out money

- shiprock

Strawberries mmm

This morning:

"heeeeeeyyyyyy" (fades)

i look and a slim brunette whisks past me on her bike down agua fria

hi amanda :)

SO MUCH WORK.

9am to noon staff meeting

fell asleep by the end

going over 80% of the script and oh my god my boss pisses me off. i understand it but at the same time, im also a registrar so shut up and stop worrying

sigh

negativity

but things getting done yay

still need to figure out my projects left and right, so much to doooo

at least im full

breakfast burrito, strawberries, orange juice, chocolate glazed dunkin donuts

there's even coffee which is great but oh my god so much work

didn't really have lunch, just finished up my breakfast burrito

worked on keri, robin, and colin's pieces

will work on victoria's tomorrow

gotta get my registraring down to a point man

came back home

and of course i think the laundry machine is empty

and i open it and of course

it's full of leena's black clothes. probably the same black clothes were hung to dry last week.

i waited for christine and leena to leave (oh gosh christine im sorry about this weird scam from england) and threw leena's clothes onto the floor from the washer

they've definitely been sitting in there a while

and put mine in

and they're about to be done nad dry

stupid bitch

i need to do work

i need to pack

i need to figure out my life whyyy

got my laundry done by stomping on leena's clothes then putting them back into the wash after mine were done. im too nice.

went out for pizza with christine at dion's

talked a lot

and who walks in but my boss paula

fun times.

met her family members? who were also there?

got home and stared at my mess of a room

talked to my love and drifted asleep :)

"That Little Stretch of 14th St I'd Have To Walk Where I Could Make Out The Moon"

morning all

woke up as usual to an email/message from my love (see?)

heard someone go through the gate RIGHT OUTSIDE my window, and realized that leena's friends' car was still outside so 1) ew 2) thank god i didnt hear leena's voice then

felt very happy talking to a certain hairy pudgy marsupial who is on a plane right now, probably scaring everyone around him because of how dark he is (so much love, i swear :D)

realized i missed my bus so i waited a bit

then began walking out on that road again

and a car pulled up behind me and was like "hey do you need a ride?"

situation: nice woman in sunglasses in a toyota, not sketch construction man.

answer: sure? to the bus stop?

her: well im headed downtown, i can easily drop you off.

and so began my encounter with Martha, the woman who lives in a casita in my neighborhood haha

she's been living in the neighborhood for 3 years, and never really met anyone because there's been such a shift, people moving in and out so quickly she figured no one was on a lease at my house.

very shrewd observation, Martha.

now she knows who is the reason why for the recent past, as does everyone i've encountered

Martha's really nice, she works for a foundation that brings writers and gives them grants

she too lived in new york for 15 years when it was affordable to just be young and have your own studio

she was really sweet im glad she gave me a ride to work.

good day ahead mayhaps?

yayy

im the registrar for all the SOFA pieces

i jsut handled so many thousands of dollars worth of jewelry

thank you to loren aragon's mother, keri ataumbi (!!!! "bug cuff is awesome), robin waynee's husband (...), colin coonsis (that's right, the saul bell winner was in your midst!), and apparently victoria adams who got there after i left

oh man so many beautiful pieces :)

yay for registrar work! i liiiive for this stuff hahaha

got picked up by nica, we went over to SAR so i could take vault photos

thanks to laura for letting me do that, that was awesome :)

then went to del charro where i ran into colin who really liked my hair

and had margarita and an ice cream sundae

then went over to blake's lotaburger

i will definitely feel this dinner soon, the green chile was HOT and now i can feel my face and my stomach being unhappy haha

yayy got to talk to my living koala before he boarded his flight, sooo close

also ended up going to wal-mart with christine to get peach soda (yum, Big Peach)

came back to an email form Teri saying that she's willing to make the perfect bracelet for me. what is there not to like in this bracelet: http://newmexicocreates.org/product-10402/Beaded-Taxi-Bracelet

"Taxi For Piet," it's New York, Piet Mondrian, and the fucking amazing Teri Greeves. Hell fucking yes I want a custom fit beaded Taxi bracelet from this mind blowing artist :)

A Day for Higher Dialogue

woke up early

babysat gael from 10 to noon at his new house

lena is so sweet, im glad she's finally getting her casita on anita pl and gomez

got back home and breathed

then amanda pulled up in her truck

we kind of caught up

immediately negativity just entered the conversation about leena but her being her, i grounded myself and kept thinking positively

then christine took a picture of us (yay part 1 done)

then we were off to the awesome teri greeves studio

and ohhhh my god

best 2 hours ever.

amazing conversation, i felt myself literally be educated :)

such an enlightening conversation, it really was

but now im back

and leena's having a craft night

which is just girl talk

and leena bitching about me and the rest of the past housemates

wow. leena.

shut the fuck up, this house is so empty how the hell does she think she can't be heard, every single word.

whatever.

i need to turn myself deaf to avoid this negativity.

it's been a few hours, leena hasna't stopped talking BUT

christine got her car!

and a box of funyuns and beef jerky hell yeah.

ahahah so now im enjoying a bag of funyuns and beef jerky at 10pm.

yeah. okay.

omg leena go to fucking bed and stop creating a racket with your livingness.

get a fucking job and stop creating crafts no one gives a crap about, it's called survival and if you're gonna complain incessantly about debt, then do something to change your situation, not burden everyone in the world.

SOMBRERO

so excited.

babysitting for gael for a few hours...

got out earlier than i thought but gael took me around the international folk art museum, very cute

we played with the puppets in the children area that i know so well

and the moment lena texted me that she was in the area, gael started to feel bored and fussy and wanted to go home

lena got him steak tacos at the museum cafe and we left

her and her aunt chia drove me to mcdonalds to let me pick up some lunch and i got me and christine mickey ds :)

got home, leena asked about utilities and didnt make a fuss about either of us not being able to pay her right now

watched some anime, took a sweet nap

waiting for this rain

just waiting

yay teri greeves interview tomorrow!

STOP LETTING STRANGE PEOPLE USE OUR BATHROOM

EW

lols at Christine's muffled "GODDAMNIT" xDDD

TRUTH OR CONSEQUENCES

Aaaaah I want to go to Truth Or Consequences, NM hahahaha

possibly with corey, maybe drop by El Paso

i def need to spend my time in august very well :)

also need to do a ton more work.

oh well.

haha

killed so many trees

cherry coke and nachos for lunch at the 5 and dime haha

got lots of nice comments on my outfit, too bad im not going anywhere

poor christine with the hick

after work i went to 5 and dime and do some souvenir looking

got a refill on my cherry coke

found an entire wall of cowgirl hats (pink straw hats with light up tiaras attached) and sombreros and mexican ponchos

i love racism

then went to starbucks to get a $2 mocha coconut frappucino with caramel on top and gave it to christine because i think she needed a pick me up and i had a coupon anyway :)

got chinese food delivered from Asian Restaurant

it was okay, def. better than pizza haha

fell asleep really early like 9am

woke up at 1am

went immediately to bed when leena got home

did NO WORK :(

Whee

Woke up, decided to go in a bit late

So much work to get through, I really need to focus....

Design meeting went okay, my text is going to be chopped to the point where none of my words will be in it. I'm fine with that, I just want this out of my hair

Sharon is now playing Jesse McCartney.....sigh.

SO MUCH TO DO WHY

WHY

had lunch at Sushi Land East, chicken bento box with everything

seaweed salad, two other salads, shrimp and vegetable tempura, chicken teriyaki, california rolls, gyoza, edamame, rice, and noodles

then sitll had space for green tea ice cream

i treated myself yeah bc i am doing lots of stuff

before lunch i dropped by shiprock and met amanda edwards who gave me images and the wall labels for teri greeves' newest works. she even lent me the Craft In America segment on dvd :)

people are so nice!

5 and dime need to buy packing tape and cheesy souvenirs~

went to del charro with corey to have a drink with shawna, henry, walt her cousin, and john

electric lemonade, had grilled cheese and chicken gumbo (which i just finished the rest of)

ran into gael and lena, and the woman with her knew shawna--small world!

then went to Cantina with just corey and had a coke while he had a lava lamp (frozen margarita over lager beer)

then went to the Mix party at Luxx where we ran into paula and sharon

then met up with dolores and will, then john joined us again

then saw lisa donahue :) REALLY small world

pretty chill dj, people mingling

it was kind of weird, how people were just hanging out in rooms made it seem like a swinger lounge (lol corey)

def a mix, as there were young to old to old with babies?! and kids?!

after a bit i just left my drink ticket with corey and caught the 7:19 bus with a female driver whoaaa ahaha

got home, watched a bunch of clips and videos

had the rest of my gumbo, and christine was having a terrible day :(

talking to a few people

then christine made rice, beans, turkey dogs, egg

fried rice + soy sauce

pretty good :D

"Someone is blasting dynamite in the plaza. The song. Not tnt."

Good job fardeen ^ gotta love my flaming peacock of a boyfriend. Spirit fingers *shakes head*

woke up late, exhausted and pissed at the bios

but talked to my love and felt so much better

now im at the office with a green tea lemonade, intent on getting myself a burger and break out if it comes to it because i am HUNGRY lol

gotta edit this bullshit, figure out my bank stuff, interview iwth teri greeves, paper on SWAIA, inuit stuff, etc.etc.etc.

burrito company lunch of cheesburger and watermelon water

nick drew me another picture where i look happy and im surrounded by monsters lol

bios are essentially done, i should leave early and figure out bank stuff then think hard about teri, SWAIA, online research

NACC clothing contest totally no one showed up. whatever.

dinner with christine yay dominos hahaha

Prickly Pear Iced Tea

Woke up kind of late, staff meeting was cute with Micah smiling! Dine laugh out loud parties sounds really nice :) a baby's first laugh really should be celebrated

Bruce's drawing of the road is pretty good, but I've never seen someone who can't draw a star haha >_>

Got thirsty so went to Palacio Cafe and got a prickly pear iced tea. Probably gonna go there for lunch again and get a free refill yay!

WORKWORKWORK

i seriously need to clarify stuff with the bank

SOFA meeting today

Need to start photocopying things for my research

Finish looking through the past INdian Market magazines on my floor

Pack

Teri Greeves prep :O

Christine, don't let some hick from Louisiana rape you because he towed your car and is giving you a good discount on getting parts replaced. Seriously, he sounds creepy and too much like Stuart, and all the "hey loves, love you babe, see you darlin'"s doesn't make it better.

Can't believe how creepy men are here in Santa Fe, guy at the food stamps office, waiter at the shitty chinese place, and now this tow truck hick all being creepy towards her :(

how interesting..

need to write bios :((

christine: i don't care if you add a bear and his bear wife. i love bears. i think they're hilarious. but i don't give a damn anymore.

christine and i made ramen + tofu noodles in chicken broth with peas, carrots (those that came with the chicken ramen i had), and shitake mushrooms (yay mom thanks so much!). we added crushed red pepper from pizza hut and the result was DELICIOUS :D

leena brought over a friend, jeff?, to the house to "have a beer and watch a movie"

yeah okay

and she DIDNT blast her music

so christine encouraged me to, and the playlist that came up was hilarious. Sean Kingston, anime music, country, oh man. how do you not fuck to that eclectic playlist. >_>

christine and i stood outside after a while because we didnt want to be in the kitchen or the house during the fucking hour (2-4am) and christine had a smoke

we really do talk about a lot, leena even mentioned it and she tried being all motherlyish

oh and i saw leena naked

but she was in the dark of the livingroom that i never glance at

i glanced, and i saw the outline of a body but that's about it

just a glance, the darkness and my bad eyesight. man ive never been so happy about my bad eyesight.

she needs naked time apparently. yeah okay it's called LIVE BY YOURSELF -_-

im glad the guy left at 2:45am...i was doing work until literally 2:23am. damn these bios to hell they only exist because i am who i am, no more no less, beggars can't be choosers so don't tell me my ideas are lazy when they're the artists' words themselves. if you want more, give me more than 2 damn days.

sigh

work

work

call whc and fnb to change address, figure out fnb

work

went to lunch at indian palace, good lunch buffet

chicken masala, tandoori chicken, beef curry, some vegetables, garlic naan, and mango custard yay

to buy:

milk

eggs

bread

veggies

something to drink

to do before i leave:

teri greeves interview//figure out camera

give back nica's endtable

give back amanda's mattresses

give back christine's sarong curtain

shop at jackalope, make lists

pzoneee from pizza hut aaaaugh. watched the Misfits and had pizza rolls and pzone with christine. driver was so confused about our street haha

way late but RIP to Jake Koopee, one of the judges I invited and confirmed yes

real poor people who have shitty cars that won't start in the morning walk on that godforsaken dirt road and wait for the bus, spend $1 to take it, and then walk to their destinations

not call a taxi

gtfo you idiot, no wonder you're in debt. and overweight. native-specific heat retainment my pale asian ass.

my god leena, turn off the damn stove. 5 fucking minutes the kettle was crying like a hungry baby before christine just got out of the room and did it herself.

hot hot hot day, internet went out for 2 hours. thank god at least i have an open window and leena restarted the router next door. won't have either of those luxuries in my place in august

oh well

Next Time I See Her I'm Kicking Her In The Pachonga

Woke up at 9:30am and had to shake myself awake enough to conduct the phone interview with Victoria Adams at 10am. That phone interview lasted about an hour and half and it became a conversation between me and her about technology and she just told me about everything in her life, all these anecdotes and she was so great :)

Waited, then woke up Christine because I got Nica's text that she was up and called Wal-Mart, no one turned in the key.

I tidied up my papers and I need to start using binder clips for my research

It sucks but my dvd of Teri Greeves Interview doesn't work so I have to watch it at work and then make note of what questions I should ask. I really should print out her other materials like the artist statement and the resume.

At 1, I did my phone interview with Pat Pruitt, who told me one of the questions was borderline offensive, which says a lot because that essentially is his answer--

Nica came and took Christine to Wal-Mart and see if the car was still there (still was, so Christine called and waited for a tow truck)

Then Nica came back and picked me up and I went over to the Soft Museum where I helped her clean up and oh my god it was so overwhelming, both her and Nick were just on the verge of anger and tears it was so :(

But we got a lot done in an hour which is good yayyyy

Got a raspberry iced tea and bag of salsa-flavored fritos (i dont know, it was a on-the-fly decision)

Talked with nica until about 4pm, then got picked up by Tailinh and now im in Starbucks on wifi and "doing work" but yeah

surprisingly calm

i like it when things are hectic but they're in clear steps

I never have to deal with Leena ever again since she unfriended me first (yessssh) and I know now I will never exchange anything with her except very sparse words, probably all about me moving out. If she pushes it, then I'm going over to the farmers next door, borrowing their mallet, and going to hell on my room.

Suck it, bitch :)

But unless that happens, I'm good for now yayyyy

after starbucks i went to nick's dad's house for nick's sister's birthday party/bbq

they saved me a plate and i had some salad, beans, guacamole, and really awesome wings

then they had a funfetti cake that was absolutely perfect, covered in frosting, and was moist

it was cool, nick's house and family are so interesting, full of love, and quirky

the masks collection was definitely pretty sick

then me, nica, nick, autumn, max, and dylan all went for a walk into the secret park where we had to walk across a big metal pipe to get to it

we sat on the grass (GRASS! GRAAAAAASSS!!! :D) and talked, and nick and dylan had some pretty great raps

definitely love the hello kitty one "hey bitch you just a white pussy thats shitty/Hello Kitty" hahaha

then we watched the Wal-Mart music video (oh god twerking all over the place) on dylan's phone which was hilarious

more hilarious was watching nica, nick, and autumn attempt it while walking back

nica was so happy that i helped clean that she's gonna help me out with rides :)

i got home pretty early and had another long long conversation with christine who told me her ex is going on the same diet

seriously by the end of this summer she and i will know everything about each other hahahah

we started our conversation at 9pm and i went to bed at 1am hahaha

Saturday Morning~

Woke up at 7am and thought it was a work day so I got up to get ready, realized it was Saturday, and went back to sleep.

Woke up again at 9am and had a cup of iced tea, honey bun, waiting for my first phone interview

Robin Waynee is nice, then during that call, Cody Sanderson called me and we had our phone interview right then and there as well

Gonna be a busy weekend of work work work

Made myself some ramen, ready to go out

need to call the bank

tidy

read

figure out internet for the new place

tons of stuff to do but it looks like my santa fe adventure is stalling haha

maaaan i still need to call the bank and WHC to change my mailing address

went to the O'Keeffe Museum, saw some really beautiful works by Ben Shahn, Romare Bearden, O'Keeffe of course, and Richard Estes and Norman Rockwell.

really liked their wall tags which would have thumbnails of works that the piece draws influence from :)

saw Corey of course at the gift shop, bought some postcards, chatted, fun stuff

went to Sam's Club to look at fruit and found "Vodka/Cranberry" which is literally a handle of Smirnoff and a thing of Ocean's Spray sold together in a set, which is super cute hahaha

and a party tub of vintage coke bottles :D

then went to Wal-Mart and I bought a plastic sandwich container for the lols and it was a $1 and I can't stop laughing at it because the small things in life amuse me :)

subway dinner, the messiest meatball sandwich

christine got scoops of chicken teriyaki hahaha

when we left the store she realized she lost her key

after 2 hours of searching we realized the doors were unlocked, which is definitely not something christine does

we realized, sitting in the car at 10:30 that someone has the key because it was unlocked and so i bought us some sodas, called nica to pick us up, and took some pictures of the car

thank god my phone and camera had full battery, i was even able to pull up the volkswagen dealership in santa fe

and now we're in the house talking to a lovely lady officer about the whole situation :)

that officer was actually pretty gorgeous for a santa fe cop

"oh yes there's a lot of crime, someone got stabbed last night"

seriously? that sparked a very very very long conversation about crime, race groups, bad blood, weather, and just fucked up ness where christine and i stood outside of our house, bathed in moonlight, her smoking the rest of her camel crushes, me looking up at the cloudy sky and stars

we talked for hours until we got cold, which was probably around 1 or so, then sat at the kitchen table and talked until literally 3am about how negative and positive energy, how life is just full of bullshit which is why people like leena should just stop because it's so easy to look at the negative, point it out, make it worse, but its finding the positive that is harder, better, and healthier

leena just does need to stop. i said to myself "okay today is the last day i feel upset about this and talk about" and it's half-true--i do need to tell bruce about it come monday morning, but i honestly dont feel bad about it now

i look forward to moving out :)

im tidying up, getting my research and affairs in order, getting ready to moooooooove haha

i really need to reorganize my research

but i also need to buy little gifts for everyone haha but i dont know what X_X

Alternative Fuel Cars ONLY

Did so much today o_o

Rescheduled meetings, put together contact lists

Got out of work at like 11

Went to THe Shed with Corey, Montana, and Corey's cool friend Dolores joined :)

Had the chicken taco and enchilada with green chile plate, sooo good

Then I tried to go to the bank, but failed

Visited Autumn at Senor Murphys and got some chocolate covered cherries yum

Picked up by Christine in her green beetle,

went with her to the women's health center, got my stuff faxed over

christine kind of set up an appointment

we got out, i sneered at Legal Aid

then we drove out to IAIA and spent a few hours in the library doing some research

campus middle of nowhere but pretty and clean/new looking

then we went to get some juice :) her huge watermelon drink, my melon milk drink yumm

then went home, had veggie burgers, then left to meet Lisa who was nice

she was reading a street art book the moment i saw her

MAJOR brownie points with that

the place was pretty cute, big studio apt, one room with a kitchen and a bathroom

only cons are no wifi and can't open windows but oh man furniture and a tv?!! :DD

maaan

then i got back home

and of course leena brought over some guy when i was trying to do work calls (sigh this SOFA thing...)

44 and male, looking to live in a room? he literally said

"the place i live in right now is really really really nice, and i honestly don't want to leave it but you know"

Tiffany Win

• i mean he seems kind of like a loser
• what 44 year old man needs to live in a shithole like this?
• and he was talking about his mom?
• ...
• and i think he asked leena out to dinner
  
  
  
  
  ahahhahahaha xD
  oh leena.
  
  
  • "august 2nd will be difficult because people will want to move in august 1st"
  • "so you have to be flexible about this"
  • "dont you have friends who can move out your stuff for you since you have so many friends"
  • lol seriously i cant stop laughing, she's so sad
    
    
    i think monday's the day to tell bruce of all the wonderful things she told me :)
    
    
    WORK WORK WORK
  
  

Dead Frog?

Woke up lateish but made the elusive 1 bus. Good sign!

Got to work and didnt feel weak. Good sign!

Got work and my emails sorted out. Awesome!

Parched throat. Easily fixed!

Dead tiny frog amphibian looking thing exactly where the dead huge beetle roach was a few days ago. What?

OH OH me and christine saw a baby coyote on cerillos :O

COCHITI FEST! :)

absolutely amazing if not kind of uncomfortable as i looked so out of place

soooo out of place that it was like .... >_>

but the dances

the people, the love, the family, so amazing

tailinh, you're amazing thank you for taking me out and your boys are amazing

with their sticker books of the clone wars :)

and meeting all those people

those costumes, absolutely beautiful i wish i couldve taken a photo but i know a mental one is better than nothing. i saw a little kid with his fox tail being way too big, like bigger than his body, so cute hahaha

snow cones galore! had a coconut and lime then a blue raspberry--first time having a snowcone in a very very long time

the kids all got such cute ones--the weirdest was luca who wanted root beer and lime.... hahaa

rainbow snow cone!

the houses were nice, i met tailinh's sister, mother and aunt in law and then the kid's godmother. such good food! chicken and rice, red chili, so many salads and watermelon, melons, jello, cookies, cake, dum dums

absolutely beautiful landscape, with the cochiti dam--patches of land full of green and trees :)

sigh it just makes me feel so happy to be alive

grape creme shake at sonic? uhm augh >_>

going out tonight

gotta be a night where i feel pretty because i need this

train party part 2

awesome, cute weird outfit with my tie necklace, neon pink skirt, gladiator heels

lovin' nica's new amy winehouse look :)

beautiful night sky full of clouds and a bright full moon, some okay beats...

danced portals so people can back the fuck up if they cant keep up with the baby beasts

and yeah okay leena, stand around sipping your drink as though you got power but bitch you gotta put your clothes on around the house instead of hanging out naked in doorways disrespecting everyone with your pregnant-looking self, let alone naked or in towels. retaining too much heat in that belly huh

and shut the front door stupid hypocrite

got two huge projects to work on now, but imma get through them

and here's the stats:

leena - beginning of time - name on lease, pays $1100 a month for rent in one big check to Suzy St. Clair, properties manager.

astrea - oct to june 5, 2011

nica - jan to june 8, 2011 - $325 lost (damage deposit never returned)

tiffany - june 2nd, 2011 - august 1, 2011 - $ 350 lost (damage deposit and "application fee" never returned)

amanda - june 9th, 2011 - july 1, 2011 (4pm) - $ 325 lost (damage deposit never returned)

christine - july 1st, 2011 (7pm) - present

if you want to leave, give her written notice a month in advance and somehow prove there are no damages and you might get that money maybe within 5 weeks after you leave. good luck, new person.

christine saw leena naked. i never wish such evil upon on anyone.

there's nothing more unsexy than an unattractive female cleaning in her underwear. except maybe eating too much. all i know is my nausea got worse.

"tomorrow i just feel like it's gonna be a fucking terrible day, that we're all gonna die or something awful"

- nica, nick, autumn, and christine.

tomorrow's gonna be a struggle.

to do:

change my address (tricore, whc, fnb)

iaia library research

confirm wed at 2 NACC meeting

WHC

get bruce's papers

make a decision and game plan haha

SOFA and NACC

Oof

Woke up at 8:30am and couldnt get out of bed

Never knew i had so much rage in me, and that it can consume me to a point--but that's what happens when someone who internalizes so much of the external takes in a negative havoc like leena. she is a fire, destroying so much in her path, overwhelming everything for miles radius, but i know so much good will arise from the ashes and i will emerge a stronger, more knowledgeable person. so im sorry to all who've heard me bitch and bitch and bitch but please dont think im not aware that even though damage deposits are not necessarily how life works, meeting bitches and idiots like her is very much so.

i really cant wait to bring up how she endangered my life by leaving the gas on. fuck your 20k equipment.

staying at home, did some errands but not all

apparently IAIA is like half an hour away

made myself some good ramen with an egg and shitake mushrooms yumyum

such a wonderful day, sequel to the DOUBLE RAINBOW after yesterday's thunderstorm :OOO

....then leena got home.

and shit got real.

i got an amazing deal to live elsewhere but it looks like im trapped in prison. i may have lost this battle, but i know i fought and lose with honor. and everyone will know that tomorrow at my office.

bug bit my face, right under my eye. hope it's not a bed bug, but it is the same formation: triangle, with three little red dots. doesn't itch, and only one triangle.

tons of stuff to do as usual, research, exercise, call lawyers, doctors, life life life haha

pizza hut with christine- thin crust supreme chicken

watched her smoke 4 or 5 cigarettes in 2 hours talking about leena in the abandoned lot on our lovely jewelry ditch dirt road, parked in her beetle

i really love it when i talk to people and at the end i feel so grateful for everything i have :)

I Am Tired.

call me a weak person for not being able to fulfill my 3 month process

but call me bitter, disheartened, and an utter cynic if i do this. and out of $350, nevertheless.

yeah im pretty weak, i have to admit.

couldn't keep it together for the first half of the day

staff meeting was the longest thing i had to sit through

lunch was nice bc it was me and montana eating at the 5 and dime (chili cheese hot dog and frito pie haha) and me ranting and ranting and i got it out of my system and now i feel more on stable ground

the stress was causing me to feel cold, shaky, migraines

but i think im good now

just finished watching a lot of the previews of the pieces entered for Class X, and my favorite is about the indian tacos :)

cheered me up immensely

piece of pineapple in my tummy, ready to go home to some leftovers yum yum

home without leena is a home yay

still also need to do my laundry o_o;

researccccchhhhhh nooooooooo :(

FUCKING BITCH I HATE YOU I WILL TAKE YOU TO COURT IF I HAVE TO BECAUSE YOU HAVE NOT MADE IT ANY EASIER ON YOURSELF OR FOR ANYONE ELSE WHO'S EVER LIVED IN THIS GODFORSAKEN HOUSE IN THIS FUCKING ARROYO.

incomplete

Everything I've done so far is so incomplete, i hate this phase.

I'm missing one more judge name

I'm missing two more bios

HSBC can go suck it with their online account bullshit

FNB at Santa Fe still needs to approve me for their online account

I apparently can't get a simple date or timestamp on my photos

No invoice yet from TriCore...

I still need to draft my statements

Still need to do more research--gotta get myself to the IAIA library

I haven't even gone to the museums in the area around me...

I really hate things at this stage, it's so hard to look at the glass as half full when it needs to be full and it's missing just a spoonful more...

Need to get my papers sorted out, start doing some work

Get some stretches and exercising in

RAAAAIN~

Had an El Monte panini (turkey, ham, swiss, honey mustard) and cherry vanilla creme soda for lunch at Palacio Cafe with Corey and Montana which was fun--especially when i showed corey a picture of leena and all he said was "i do not know this girl. but she looks difficult."

if only i could start on any other projects....

i dont know what the deal is with jhane and gomeo, im just gonna wait for either of them to reschedule a meeting with me instead of me wasting my phone money trying to text them into oblivion :(

dont know what i should have for dinner but i want something gooooood... haha

left work an hour early because i couldnt deal with it, i started to feel just so tired and exhausted. the rain gets to me, honestly. it's a good exhaustion, but i can tell its also my body just not knowing what to do with itself.

my bank stuff worked out, though, and i went to chopstix to get a little carton of kungpow shrimp (sigh) and a small container of hot and sour soup. is it supposed to be orange from the spice? maybe. who knows, all i know is that it's pretty good haha

i got super cold and attacked by droplets of rain waiting for the bus, i really hope i didnt get a cold

but i enjoyed my meal at the kitchen table, caught up a bit with christine, got her mail as well, and i LOVE the gift fardeen sent me :)

i took a nice sweet nap, of course to be woken up by the fire in the house

the fire stomped up to christine's room, knocked on her door, cried out "christine? are you downloading anything?"

"uhh no. im watching a tv show."

"but are you downloading it? like on netflix?"

"yes im watching it on netflix"

"okay see that's streaming it live, and it's affecting my skype connection and this is for a job that pays $40/hr, can you please shut it off?"

...really leena? really?

we all pay x amount of dollars (apparently she pays $8 a month when i should pay for $14? uh what?--yes leena, stop talking so loudly in the kitchen I CAN HEAR YOU) for this general "arroyo" wifi, stfu and maybe consider it's the thunderstorm that's making the connection difficult -_-

and i just had to sit through leena's hour of advice to man about long distance relationships

if i hear her say the word "lover" one more time i will vomit in front of her.

so much negativity whyyyyyyyy do i internalize this shit x-x

to do:

- mickey ds

- organize paperwork

- stretches

- send emails to fardeen

- organize emails

tomorrow:

- ask bruce for swaia resources

- check in with nica about her mom

- call baldwin

- call steven chan (dr.)

- research iaia library database

- online research for inuit resources

well mcdonalds was fun at least, talking about the beatles and terrible 90s music over a few chicken nuggets and a huge thing of sweet tea until the store closed

the conversation that followed with leena did not go so well

but ive taken pictures of the fridge, im going to do my best to deal with this.

What is that, Gael? "An anemone" ohh my goodness :)

woke up late today, to the sound of leena slamming that fucking gate outside my window and putting out her laundry

had ramen with the bourbon chicken from last night, not bad

called nica's mom who seemed nice but meh another time for the letter i guess

still waiting on my invoice from tricore

gotta set up my hsbc and first national account and start keeping track of my checks

:)

went up to teh international folk art festival which was fucking hot, crowded, and we walked for like 15 minutes from where we parked to the damn thing

but the parking guy gave us tickets which was cool~

we walked around, had some water at first, watched some african drumming and dancing

took some photos

i bought a mexican flower headdress for $7 and split a $6 mango drink with christine which was just fresh mango yum :)

walked back and christine dropped me off at lena and gael's new and temporary home off palace ave

spent 4:30pm to 8:00pm with gael, playing in the dirt, protecting him from dogs, reading books, and watching him pretend to be a bird with a little lifejacket

lena left me with some food and drove me home

and now its THUNDERSTORMING ~~

im sad i didnt get to go to the train party last night but i gotta say i was pretty beat, overstuffed with chinese mall food, and im sad because a certain hairy one is on a flight, getting farther and farther away from me :(

so much to do~

Rainbow's Treasures

Woke up way too early this morning, like 7am early and I dont know why

Forced myself to go back to sleep and woke up again at 1pm

Got up, had another croque monsieur with tomatoes, pomegranate limeade and talked with christine

essentially christine and i spent the entire day together

we left to go to wells fargo for her to pick up money, shopping at Ross and TJMaxx (yay for neon skirts and too-big dresses), went for drinks at Burrito Spot (seriously nica, i have a serious horchata addiction), went up to the Museum Hill for the Folk Art Festival but it was over by the time we got there so we're going tomorrow, then to the mall which had its own Carnival!

yayyy so many scary rides

it was pretty apocalyptic looking as the backdrop to teh carnival was the red clouds and smoke from the fire o_O

we went into the mall, laughed at things at Hot Topic, then went shopping in Payless (Yay $5 shoes)

then after that we got dinner at the chinese takeout place at the mall and Steven gave me a full meal for $3.78 o_O;

we got home and leena lectured us in a towel about she found the door wide open, the windows all open, and how she has $20,000 worth of equipment. a $4000 camera? no, leena, the t31 is an $900 camera at most and maybe you shouldn't be leaving the fucking instruction booklet on the kitchen table for the world to see, or your android phone on the fucking windowsill. que maricona (thanks nick haha)

i can't wait for christine to have a talk with her

had dinner, feeling a bit too nauseous and downbeat for the train party

my fortune cookie: "The rainbow's treasures will soon belong to you." inspiring shit

but the neon pink skirt will make its debut soon

still need to call nica's mom and oh FUCK i forgot to visit corey oh well x_X

Day 2 of Sparkles: Shine On You Crazy Diamond

Woke up late, but got on the bus and now im exhausted at work

i'm leaving in a few minutes or so

i need to do so much today even if im not at work:

mail my financial award statement

get lunch

take bus to museum hill

find my way to the lab of anthropology library

photocopy that catalogue and other materials

take bus back to downtown

take bus home

call/text nica and meet with her mom about the records

get home and SLEEP.

i went to the lab of anthropology to look at the catalogue i requested

it's pretty helpful i guess, i havent really read the heart of it yet

read a manuscript on "inuit artists" but they really meant carvers

i fell asleep reading about the status of women in inuit society

but i perked up because there was only one librarian and it was such an old school type deal where i ahd to tell her the call number and she brought out the books for me and i saw the rolling bookshelves

she was nice, her name is allison and she's canadian so she was giving me some good advice to look at such and such museum or gallery for resources on cape dorset/baker lake prints :)

i officially have a shelf for myself at the lab of anthropology--just a bit of taste of the thesis life

only problem is that the library's hours are the same as my work ones so i'll have to keep asking for half days to do research :(

i still need to go to IAIA's library too since they have more catalogues on pitseolak ashoona and napachie pootoogook and maybe one thing on annie pootoogook.

hm.

of course when i got there there was a crazy man on the bus with a stained comforter and bike. and bright red hair with a 10-gallon cowboy hat. seriously, the bus community gets more and more interesting.

this weekend is the colorful international folk art market, so i saw all the set up and pretty decorations. just a taste of what indian market will be like. must visit again and see if anything is worth buying.

in general i need to be going to more museums and galleries. i feel like i started off so strong--there seems to be so much more i need to see in santa fe and in new mexico in general. road trips for everyone! lol

to do list:

still need to call my doctor back in new york

get to the iaia library

shop (stores and folk art market)

visit corey at the o'keeffe museum

visit museums~

call nica's mom

hsbc

sigh life

Day 1 of Sparkles

Sparkles and flowers everywhere~

Woke up this morning way too early, then late.

I don't know what's going on with these buses anymore but it sucks.

My glamorous nail polish is chipping oh well :(

Work started and immediately clamor about the tinsel haha (yayy!)

Tailinh came with her three of her boys (Micah, Luca, and Taio) who are absolutely adorable

Montana is off modeling a denim jacket that Shonto Begay painted on. This community is so small, it's just weird that I've met his son Dante haha.

So far the day's got good vibes :)

Good vibes continuing, got to visit Autumn at La Fonda Senor Murphy and get some chocolate

I also dropped by The Art Space and got my caricature done by Nick (it looks awesome, i dont know what he's talking about)

and I got a frito pie from the burrito company and yum :)

NO. WHY IS THE WEATHER BACK TO "SMOKE." DAMNIT.

my cubicle is so me :)

OH MY GOD CRAZY KIDS ON THE ARROYO 6 of them ranging ages 5 to 13 with a mallet and a pile of 2x4s

"hey let's kill this cat"

most. horrifying moment ever seeing the kid pick up the cat O_O.

hopefully no animals were harmed

yay train party!

puma punk sneakers, jean shorts, pink tank top, cheetah/purple bra ha

christine's owl necklace

nica's green glitter eye shadow, hairclip, and jewel bindis

nice venue terrible music

the old trains were cool i gotta admit but can get very cramped

at least there werent so many that i couldnt feel like i could breathe

wish more people were dancing instead of watching me, nica, nick, and autumn dance..the dj was..meh. but yay dylan and max came a bit later and people started to dance, even if it was a bit crazy

i mean really? dee-lite, lumidee, sean paul, and nina sky? wtf was last night a throwback jam or something?

met carnell

and saw corey :D

fun fun fun

and nica got back her deposit yayyyyy

Money money money. // Flowers and Sparkles~

So much frustration.

What an adult thing...now I have to bootleg together some contract but its nice to get some order.

I am not being cheated out of $350. I need to tell Leena to use my deposit as my last month's rent and to use that bullshit $25 application fee for utilities.

I printed out all my records and I need confirmation from her that it's true because I don't have a landlady, just a Leena taking my money and giving it to the properties manager/landlady. I need some legal back up, and to make up my own contracts and get this shit clear.

So much frustration. Then I get a bitchy hysterical message from Leena on Facebook after our 1am exhausted confrontation where I told her very calmly that I was not used to people walking into my room and opening my closets.

Highlights are:

"

• • Dude, I really DIDN'T touch any of your stuff - it is false and misleading - slanderous at least - I showed you something on the wall when your door was OPEN and we were talking.... Albeit I didn't ask for permission to point at your closet wall - if you dont like this situation maybe you should consider moving out??? Do you want that??
    
    ..... I dont appreciate the FB remarks... seriously and the hostility when i haven't done anything to you intentionally or made you unsafe in anyway"
    
    
    The rest of the facebook exchange was a lot more calm at least but yes. Can't wait for the finances discussion.
    
    
    And Fardeen is a crazy person, getting me flowers and sending them to the office. getting the whole world to come to my cubicle to ooh and ahh.
    "oh so pretty!!"
    "ooh they smell so nice"
    "who are they from?"
    "what's that thing (the seedpod)"
    "im so jealous, i dont get flowers!"
    "awww that's so sweet, enjoy it while it lasts, once a relationship
    gets really long they stop doing things like this"
    her: so your boyfriend got those for your anniversary? how many years?
    me: 3 months
    her: 3 MONTHS? that is adorable! 3 months...wowww what a winner.
    
    
    haha
    
    
    then on the bus wait (augh with the 1 just driving past me and making me wait for the 5:49pm), i talked to corey, who told me about how fardeen messaged him for the address of the building
    i got on the bus and this 17 year old comes up to me, hands me a pink flower and says "you are beautiful" and walks to the back of the bus and sits.
    i thanked him, put it behind my ear and listened to music.
    i got home and about 20 minutes, nica and autumn pull up to my house
    we go to their house and i see the new perler beads and leftover food from july 4th
    nica, autumn, nick and i head over to max's salon (Volume Hair Studio) and each of us got a new do
    autumn got her hair dyed dark red, gold tinsel'd and curled like a divas
    nica got to dye her hair black and get weird short bangs
    nick got a trim and a feather attached to his hair
    and i now have silver and blue tinsel
    
    
    it was fun being in the huge studio and watching nick play witht he three ball and a string
    nica sat in the orange hairdying chair with a trashy mag and looked absolutely priceless. she also told me the best story about how she found a child of the earth (see jerusalem cricket and ALIEN BEE ANT THING) in her house and trapped it in a cup, left it for the night with a note on it saying "This is a bug."
    
    
    after all the prettifying, we went to Dennys and gorged. i had bacon, chicken patty, hashbrowns, and two eggs sunny side up. soo much food and good conversations and times :)
    
    
    kind of makes me forget that i come back to a place of passive aggression and tension.

Mandarin Lime Soda~

nica's chocolate has turned up. from where? no one will ever know. This is a 3-week old bag of chocolate from somewhere. Hopefully from the fridge.

Woke up, took the bus, overloaded my ears with Nicki Minaj haha

Staff meeting: haggard. natural light did not help

Lunch: BLTA (with avocado yum) and mandarin lime soda. and i bought an "indian girl paper doll" bc the irony was too delicious..

and it goes back to shit. so much anger, then sadness, then floated within myself and let it go. and then it got better.

left work early, ill finish my project tomorrow yay i guess

but jhane and gomeo need to find a time, not me. i am not the middle person for this.

i do not have enough text messaging power for this.

shut the fucking power box up with a piece of decorative duct tape (thanks to christine for having decorative duct tape)

then leena proceeded to piss me off

"oh there'll be some students coming by to look at the space for when the school year starts up"

"i don't like it either, but i need to make sure someone will move in after you"

"to really save water and energy, just use the dishwasher and dry your clothes outside"

"i have time now, because im busy for the rest of the time, it filled up"

and the two kickers:

"oh so when utilities for august come in september, tiffany, i'll just keep your damage deposit and deduct it from that AND THEN send it to you"

"well thats what I did with Astrea and she just took the money and left."

"well i haven't ripped you off yet"

"oh there's all this damage--" (waltzes into my room, and OPENS MY CLOSETS AND LOOKS AT IT FOR A GOOD TWO SECONDS)

fucking. bitch.

and then hostile facebook status. hostile words with the most passive aggressive way of expressing it.

best burn: "IT'S SUMMER IN THE DESERT BITCH, YOU'RE JUST FAT"

and the creaking started again.

okay, house, i get it. i do live in a haunted prison. im just gonna do my time, keep my shit safe, and try to keep sane

Happy birthday America, please don't set Santa Fe more on fire.

Woke up kind of early, waited around until about 11 or noon

Went out to Burrito Spot with Christine and enjoyed some horchata and an adobada taco

Talked for a long time again, but it's always fun with stories about drug dealers, Cici's Pizza, and Memphis as a city.

my boss is weird...inviting me out to flagstaff for the hopi weekend as a joke ( 6 hour car ride with bruce? hmm...), laguna pueblo to meet two artists with another colleague (not as sketch but he gave me 15 minutes notice so no), and then dances at cochiti (but then didnt give me times or anything...) weird....

Had Christine drop me off (in her cute lime green volkswagen beetle) at (Marie)Lena's house, where Tailinh, her boys, and her husband Hermann were grilling burgers, having fun with the sprinklers. Gael was crouched down, looking at the ants, with his babysitter Briana looking after him (who is a senior at Santa Fe High). Lena's uncle and cousin were there, as well, and the cousin and Herman were talking about tacos for a very very long time.

Good burgers, jack cheese, tomato, potato salad, avocado, sweet dark cherries, cherry vanilla creme soda (yum), and cupcakes. Oh Whole Foods haha

Played and read with Gael who at one point climbed onto my lap, and kept tugging me away when I was trying to take photos of Micah

Lena's cousin and uncle gave me a ride home, and I will never cease to take amusement in the reaction to the road that is Acequia de las Joyas.

About to go out for Nica's shindig at her house with Christine. Should be fun times for everyone.

To do:

- check mailbox for invoice

- call Tricore for discount on invoice

- call Allison the librarian about the catalogue

- start research on Pitseolak, Napachie, and Annie

- pick a date for road trip and just GO lol

edited:

Went to Nica's with Christine in her little Beetle, chilled with Nica, Autumn, Nick, Max, Dylan, and then Billy, Melissa, and Zach. Ribs on the grill, hamburgers, hotdogs, white corn, pisola(sp), beer with lime, kool-aid, iced tea, strawberries, melons, cupcakes with sparklers, and of course, the bag of franzia.

Cooked, chatted, went on the roof (oh god I hate heights..) at like 8 to watch the fireworks shooting from Santa Fe High. It went on for 30 minutes, and we kept yelling all things Americans: "Independence! Wal-mart! Meat!" etcetc.

The scary part was that you could legit see the forest fire, red flames and all, on the edge of the mountain, and it moved across the landscape since it started.

So much food, so much eating. Good people, good times :)

Nica: SO YOU'RE GONNA SHANK WITH A SHIV IS THAT IT? IS THAT A WHITE WAY OF SHANKING?

Aaand i have an endtable from Nica. All I need are blinds and my room is so set haha

Gotta love life's moments and enjoy good company

That and MEAT is what July 4th is all about I guess haha

Taos-Bound

So much creaking.

It's not the moonlight that's so disruptive. It's the sounds of the power box and gate just creaking and moaning in pain from the wind.

Went to Taos with Nica and Nick, which was fun. Got to see Nick's gallery Taos Connection

- toy store--little tokidoki cactus pup and charm thing :)

- fabric store

- the "I Am" "painting"

- mcdonalds lunch and pokemon TOYS!! (zorua? and spivey?)

- drive back, nice conversation and landscape

= smoke vs. clouds

- "He's just a pig, there are just pigs like that." - about Bruce

- cute mouse sticker on my phone

- rain rain rain rain rain sweet sweet rain

- got home and had a great fun conversation with Christine from literally 6pm to 11:30pm

- dinner of picante ramen, veggie pattie with swiss cheese and honey mustard with pomegranate limeade yum.

- my hair is weird.

fun night, i just should remember to keep my phone near me

"During my stay I found that New Mexicans are quite strange" - Nick

Fucking. child of the earth, jerusalem cricket.

Three-legged cricket is living under the stove

Spiders galore. I'm gonna have nightmares about the black widow. I'm pretty sure I had one last night.

Woke up late, to a text from Nica and an email from Bruce

Bruce gave me 15 minute notice about going to Laguna Pueblo to meet two artists with him and Gabe and Gabe's wife, which i declined for many reasons

Amanda came by to pick up everything and yet didn't say hi. It felt like a ghost took all of the stuff, her entire presence is gone from this space.

Christine is cool, I'm learning more about her. Half Filipina, from Memphis, college freshman at Santa Fe University of Art and Design. Just got out of a relationship with a 30-something year old, worked at a pizza buffet. Things will be very interesting because she's a cool chick and I don't feel the need to "student fellow" her, no matter how hard Leena wants me to.

Nica picked me up and took me to Jackalope, and I bought a nice small necklace for myself. This creepy old tanned man (part black, Nica says) said "I like the streak in your hair" and Nica said "oh thanks." A few minutes later we're looking at the necklaces and she notices the same guy crouching beside her, with his palm upward and his phone camera on his hand. She immediately goes "WHAT THE FUCK MAN, ARE YOU TAKING A PICTURE UP MY SKIRT?" and the guy gets up, and tries to play it off cool, putting his phone up to his ear and pretends to take a call, saying "no, i was answering my phone." And Nica persisted, saying "no, you were taking a PICTURE UP MY SKIRT," letting the others in the store start staring. Of course what happened was very uneventful, no fiery characters were around to step in. A few minutes later, the guy's still pretending to be on his cellphone and says "I really was answering my phone" and Nica tells me "yeah okay, get the fuck away from me." Crazies. Total. crazies.

This is why humanity can't have nice things. There's always someone who ruins it.

After that, we still went around Jackalope, which was a huge outdoors market, reminding me of Udelnaya in Cankt-Peterbourg (Санкт Петербоург) but there were PRAIRIE DOGS! :)))

Sooo cute! Pictures up later, but they were in a little area with a sand mound with a sculpture of St. Francis de Assisi on top, as though talking to the doves.

Huuuge market, must go back for souvenirs and kitschy galore.

Nica went in to buy a cactus or venus flytrap and decided cacti would last longer--she bought a small red one (kind of). There were no cashiers so we walked out with it. Eh haha

After that we dropped by AutoZone again for another run

And then we went on to going to Dante/Zack/Sheena's house, which had a really old colonial stove. It was definitely reminiscent of a shitty TH, a space that has seen too many parties. Got high, met this guy that Nica is crushing on hard and yet is completely clueless. He reminds me of Nick but a more oblivious version that can't stop and listen and read signals. Dante was nice and cute even if he did remind me at first of Chris Bando in terms of looks, but yeah he was nice. He is apparently the son of the Native artist Shonto Begay, and is Dine, and was on Sesame Street when he was 4. "The Life of a Navajo Boy," the special was called. Oh sigh.

After having a beer and a hit at their house, Nica and I went to Burrito Spot and I tried chincharron. It was interesting, but definitely just pork fat. I've never had it but it was good. Though I think for the same of my half I'll stick to real meaty meat for future meals.

Went back to her house to eat, plant the cactus, talk to Nick and then eventually Max and Dylan came. I don't remember half the conversation because I'm tipsy right now but I know I learned to play the game Space Bag Tetherball which involves taking out the bladder bag of wine that is Franzia, slapping it, then drinking from it hanging above your head. Certainly makes it taste better, for whatever reason. We also had $2 pizza and french silk pie, which was delicious, but maybe that's the tipsy talking.

I know at one point I mentioned God of War, and that's when Dylan pointed at me and said "I like this girl." Ha. He was nice to me for the rest of the night, filling my glass of wine but outlining that he was not pressuring me to drink but to let me have something for my tiny body to sip on. Best moment was when he said that "oh it's always the best friends that leave. Like, they came and they adapt and you fall in love with them and then they go, before you find out all the shit and flaws. And you just remember them as good friends" haha yay?

I wore a panda hat of Nick's for the majority of the night, which was nice.

I need to find more music, I need to look up "Kerli," and "Army of Love."

I also need to go into the desert to see stars

Tomorrow Im going into Taos to take photos and go to a toy store with Nica nad Nick

I need to call Tailinh and ask if she needs a babysitter to take her kids to the Children's Museum

Bruce asked if I'd be interested in going to the dances at Cochiti tomorrow, but I don't know how I quite feel about that without formal information and knowing who is going, how long it will take.

I might text Amanda but who knows, we have our paths to follow

And I hope to bond more with my 18 year old housemate, she seems really nice and interesting

July 4th weekend~